Saturday, September 19, 2009

I may have been wrong

Regarding the last post I made, I may have been a little wrong on some things. After a little chat with my friend and a nice chat with God, I had my eyes opened.

 I was making the music all about me and what I wanted. I was trying to make radio the way I wanted it. I didn’t take into consideration that God will use whatever he can to bring people to His kingdom. And though the songs didn’t reach out to me in some way, they may make an impact on someone else and their walk. 

It brings me back once again to a line in the song “1000 Miles Apart” from downhere:

 You stay there, and I'll stay here, into our corners we disappear
And we don’t ever have to talk, 'cause you like hiphop and I like rock
But sometimes thoughts hurt just as bad as striking cheeks with hands
It’s less our homes and more our hearts 1000 miles apart 

Now, someone may not like downhere or my choices of music and I can’t shove them down their throats trying to persuade someone why I think downhere is the best band ever. It’s just going to push them further away. 

Me, me, me. “It’s just not moving me anymore” “I am not connecting with what they are saying; it’s just words.” When am I ever going to learn that it’s not about me and ALL about Jesus? You would think that I would have learned this by now. I am thinking I am going to need to have a little prayer walk with God.

 And a sabbatical from the worship team for some time. I need to reconnect with God and I can’t do that trying to get my ducks in a row. Will I miss being up on the worship stand? Of course. But I have been making it a chore to go instead of letting God move me and speak to me. 

This just makes me think of the book I am using a Bible Study at the moment. A Mary Heart in a Martha World. Martha thought all about herself and the preparation for the Lord instead of stopping what she was doing and sitting at Jesus’ feet. I don’t want to be like Martha. I want to be like Mary and give everything I have to Jesus and just sit there and let him speak to me.

Please pray for me while I am on this journey.

2 comments:

Emily Lynn said...

Praying for you! I've had similar thoughts and God is teaching me in that area more and more all the time.

Gina: said...

Good reminder, my friend.

Even IF music is becoming more commercial, God can still use it. I find that He frequently uses secular music to refocus my mind on Him... others may hear one Christian song and feel drawn in... while others may hear the same song and feel nothing.

I do believe that a lot of people our age are dissatisfied with a majority of Christian music... it is possible to become 'too comfortable' with a commercial sound, thus turning away the upcoming demographic populations. It is something we should pray about... it's not about us, but it is important that the music industry remain focused on Christ so people are not turned away from Him. Corruption comes the moment the focus shifts to money, sales, and anything not-God. It's a battle we all face...

I will be praying for you! (and for Emily, and myself, and those in the industry...)

Ahoy! Thanks for stopping by. Sometimes life should be an open book and here you will find that true. My mind is always on full speed and I will be heading over many waves. I hope this journey is as much of an adventure for you as it is for me~ ~Mindy